Okay, You Can Come Now

I climbed a lot of stairs and lifted all the things this weekend. First, it made me very grateful for my body and what it can easily do without a 9-month pregnant belly. It also made me feel much less OCD about the state of the nursery.

I know I said I wanted to have a baby on July 20th. I changed my mind and asked Michael to please stay in a bit longer and maybe actually to not come out at all. I'm not ready!! I hadn't washed his clothes, his nursery wasn't ready and I didn't have any nursing pads. All those things have since been remedied. It makes me feel a little more ready, but still... now I have to think about this mom thing? That's a little more nebulous and intangible. It's not like I can check "mommy readiness" off my ever present To Do list, right?

It's in the scary times like this that I'm beyond grateful for a husband who holds the priesthood. He gave me one of the most personal and powerful blessings I have ever received. And suddenly all the insecurities and physical pain and discouragement became about something bigger than me with accessible help much bigger than me. I was so humbled to be reminded of the gift of motherhood and to be directed to access help and comfort from my Heavenly Father as well as my eternal teammate, JR. I know, rocket science right? Like I said, humbling. I am truly blessed to have a Heavenly Father who knows me so personally and a husband who can speak for Him.

And then, in the middle of all this goodness, we got the nursery done! There are a few minor things that still need to be hung but overall it turned out even better than we hoped. I don't know how to take those cute "room reveal" pictures, so you're getting iPhone pictures that may or may not include Ted.